Friend (Birthday)

I use to have a friend if you could call it that.

But like all good things it must come to an end,

And this was no exception to that.

We were friends from the start, 

but in the end you left me,and broke my heart.

Because of you I have trust issues,

And I've met some real nice people too,

But I can't open up to them like I did with you, 

I'm afraid that they'll do what you did to me too.

I know I should forgive you and move on because it's the right thing to do,

But I can't get over what you did to me, and its eating me , kill me from the inside.

Sometimes I think why am I still alive ,

Why can't I just die.

But it all lies with you,

Yeah it's all lies with you,

I like the way that sounds it just describes you,

as much as I'd hate to admit it I would forgive you,

but if I fall anymore into this darkness I don't think I will be capable to.

I don't know what to say if people ask me about you,

"How is she?" How is who?

"Don't you speak to her?" I don't think I want to.

You had me believing it was all to do with myself,

because of you I couldn't break out, I couldn't be myself.

You were my reason for everyday,

but everyday a part of my happiness you took away.

Every time I'd see you I'd say,

Hi, how are you?

But I'd just get ignored and pushed away.

But hey it's ok.

There's no reason for any of us to stay, and pretend everything's fine,

So let's just go our separate ways.

E

Broken Record

This is just a little poem I wrote, hope you enjoy it:

Broken Record

I hate that I love you,

but no one makes me feel the same way as you do.

When I see you "typing" I get butterflies in my tummy.

For you I turn into a complete dummy.

And when I hear your voice,

It's the sweetest noise.

Music to my ears an orchestrated symphony.

Those are just the things you do to me.

But you say it'll never work between us.

But you see I'm a broken record.

I just keep singing the same song.

I say yes and you'll say no.

We'll keep trading blow for blow.

I'm just stuck on you,

You don't see it the same way I do.

I love you, I love you, you I love.

I hate that I love you,

but no one makes me feel the same way as you do.

I try not to miss you,

but you find your way into head like you always do.

So I put my heart in an un-open-able block.

But you still seem to find the lock.

I learnt to grow a full metal heart.

But you just make it rust and fall apart.

But you see I'm a broken record.

I just keep singing the same song.

I say yes and you'll say no.

We'll keep trading blow for blow.

I'm just stuck on you,

You don't see it the same way I do.

I love you, I love you, you I love..

I hate that I love you,

but no one makes me feel the same way as you do.

I can't stand that I care about you , thinking maybe you'll care about me too.

You play your twisted games on my mind as it slowly decays,

likes it's your personal playground.

It makes me sick and home bound.

Your a cruel mistress,

I know it but in you I put my trust.

But you see I'm a broken record.

I just keep singing the same song.

I say yes and you'll say no.

We'll keep trading blow for blow.

I'm just stuck on you,

You don't see it the same way I do.

I love you, I love you, I...hate...you?

E